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( 8:35 PM ) tIcKLeMe
*giggles* *laughs* *giggles*.

Take a guess. I am for once, not pouting, grumbling, whining and complaining. =) Better appreciate it as it doesn't happen often.

Don't bother guessing what might have happened. Things have not changed a single bit. It is just that I have finally began to accept the fact that certain things in life will not be how you want it to be. If things don't work out, fine. I will always get another chance. It's only a matter of time. Wasted though, after all that we've been through. che wah che wah , look who's talking?! *giggles*

Well, seriously. It's true! Things would be so much better if my Brian angel was still alive. My one and only problem solver. Hur. Can't wish for him to come back though. BRIAN angel, I miss you muchie much. *hugs* Love ya too, angel. =)

NO! I am not being depressive over that anymore. Am glad he's gone too because he wasn't really enjoying his life. :) Rite!

Did I mentioned that last week my dad brought me to search for Highland Towers? Yea, the place where that tragic incident happened back in 1995. Couldn't find the road leading to that place though. Can only see it from the highway. Looks creepy alright, especially after all those story-telling Deon told. Found some creepier looking abandoned houses while trying to look for the road that leads to Highland Towers though. Took vids of it.

Met Beatrice yesterday on the way to college. Hrmphs. No comments. Just felt like saying it.

Watched Halloween : Resurrection. Very predictable. I knew barely about the movie except that it's the continuation part for Halloween : H20. Wanted to watched Double Vision. Well, will be doing it today, hopefully.

Oh, I need lotsa hugs. To show that I am actually being loved. Those who reads this, a hug from you in my comment box pls? :) Even found a suitable pix for it. There you go :

I need a job! lalalala (sings to the tune of P.Diddy's I need a girl's song). Office job, if possible. 3 months off. Nothing to do. *screams* :)

Oh, have I mentioned that my buffer fish died? No, not the meat eater but the other tamer one. *pouts*

Okay, one more paper to go! Screwed the rest. No biggie. :) *smiles*

I think I am sick of smiling. It is just so not me! :)

Haha. Ok. Nappy time. Tata. :D

Wait. OMG! Cookiez has a new site! And she never mentioned about it to me. *pouts*
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( 6:19 AM ) tIcKLeMe
I think I have been cursed. After receiving a message from a friend yesterday, it had me thinking. He stated that I have never been happy since the first day knew me, which was about a year plus ago. I knew I was very happy last month because I thought I had a dream come true,meeting someone who clicks so well with me, who is like some missing jigsaw puzzle piece that has been missing for ages. Spoke too soon I guess.

People who knows me (don't have to know me well to know) that I haven't been smiling for weeks. Any idiot who reads my past entries would notice that I haven't been quite happy for quite some time. After not seeing HIM for days, I finally managed to crack a smile today and everyone else was suprised to see me in such a cheerful mood. I had no idea why was I smiling away for. Maybe it's because I finally got to see HIM but still, I feel that I am losing HIM.

I haven't managed to get a good sleep for the past two weeks, being so afraid that things would end soon. Usually, I never go wrong with my instincts. About 95% of the time, I am always right. I can't sleep without questioning myself if THE END would come soon. Then I'll get all emotional and all, without HIM knowing. This sucks. There are so many things that I want to express, but couldn't. I believe it should be P&C. Wouldn't be nice if I tell the whole world my personal problems, eh (finally, I realised that!)? :)

It's always me who makes the initiative to call, to message and to ask HIM out. It is like as though I am the only one that is wanting to talk to HIM. After today's conversation on the phone, it made me felt worse. Well, couldn't blame HIM though. HE is busy with his studies, perhaps. The reason I always tell myself to comfort and make me feel better. I always tell others who seek me for a shoulder to cry on that everything changes. It's either for the better or for worst. Guess it's easier said. It hurts, alright. Grr.. an old friend called and reminded me of HIM. It sucked. Bahs, I'm being the depressive bitch again.

Screwed my papers yesterday. F* it. Partly screwed mine today. Lets see about the other 3 papers that are yet to come.

My bloody buffer fish is a meat eater. Attacks all my other fishies. My feng shui fish's eggs are all gone. Bloody carp ate them.

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( 11:40 PM ) tIcKLeMe
Okay. Maybe I am a Mr. Fake Romantic's victim. Well, do read more about it in this month's issue of Cleo magazine. I know it is not healthy to follow what these kinda woman magazine says but the "symptoms" are way too true to be ignored. Hur... nvm.

Woke up at around 7.30 am this morning to go to the Pudu market. Urh, no, not shopping for vegetables and meat but for fishes (no, not dead ones. I am talking about live ones)! Uh-huh. Didn't you know they have quite a number of varieties? There are 4 different shops there and it is slightly cheaper than elsewhere. I bought this leopard-looking yellow + brown bubble/ buffer fish. A pair of it that is. It was so cute, but kinda ganas. I bought another carp since the ones I bought earlier on had died and there was only one surviving carp left. Now, back to my leopard-looking yellow + brown bubble/buffer fish. The smaller one bit the newly bought carp's tail. Urgh. Told you it was ganas. My sister bought a pair of baby tortoises (pssstt... Celeste, looks like we should give our baby tortoises a gathering someday, eh?)

We got cheated RM2 each because they put on the wrong price tags. Hur. My sister named it Peeka and Boo. Actually, I made her name them that. Haha. :D

Came back home, and fell right asleep. Thank goodness there was water when we came home as when we left the house earlier on, the condominium tanks were having some problem with the water pressure or something.

After I got right up, relatives from Taiping were here for lunch. Grr.. relatives have been visiting my place since two weeks ago. Non-stop. There was one time, there were 19 of us in my condo! *screams*

Oh.. oh, this is the best part. My pair of Kissing Jurami (no idea how you spell it) or better known as Feng Shui Fish laid eggs! My dad quickly took away my huge sucker fish as the last time my Angel fish laid eggs, the huge sucker fish sucked all the eggs up. Hur. *smacks my sucker fish*.

Will be buying a new oxygen pump for my sucker fish since it has been seperated.

That's all for now. Haven't started studying yet. Gr..

Oh, Happy Deepavali to all those who are celebrating. Adieu! :D

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*ultimately silly*